Nothing is perfect. Roses aren’t always red and violets sometimes aren’t blue. The world spins onward. Time doesn’t stop and no matter how powerful and mighty we feel in one moment we are not the same person as yesterday. As time changes, we change, families change, friends change. Sensing change yet not discovering the direction the wind is blowing is a fear I hold.
I finally accept that no matter how much effort is exhausted, elements of the future are unpredictable. You can’t control the way the wind blows but you can control whether to walk with it or against it. Those that choose to walk with you were meant to be in the life you presently live.
These next few months include graduation and receiving a location for the job I accepted back in November. I haven’t been up to date on posting because my mind has been pretty detached.
You need to focus on the most important, and I hold my happiness pretty high on that list. I needed to think and digest and perhaps realize some things that I have known deep down in rediscovery. No matter what, the people who want to be in your life will be. Digging away at the uncontrollable is no easy route to take.
In the fear of the unpredictable I was also in fear that the choices I make now would separate me from those I love. I started to pull away from everything. Sometimes life is a mind game. You can’t control others but you can control yourself. So do what you can, with what you have, and be yourself. Those that want to follow will and never look back.
Yesterday was the Philadelphia Love Run. It was my sister’s first half marathon. I wasn’t nervous, there was no pressure, I hadn’t really set a goal because of distraction.
Instead of being sunny and 60, the race was pouring, windy, and 45 degrees. It was hard and I ran against the wind. I PR’ed with a time of 1: 37.11. I crossed that finish line wet, blue, and absolutely freezing. Push and dig and fight. Hold on. Life isn’t always sunny, Philadelphia isn’t always sunny, but no matter what, you’ll get there. Step by step, little by little, you’ll get there.
Believe in yourself, because I believe in you too.
Take time out to develop yourself, believe in yourself, and always…run with fire <3
Have an amazing monday all xx